i have nothing to do without being bemused..The new year is coming with so many dreams....one dream ,one world .... oh yeah ... let's make a wish and embrace the  future ! Please  speak out our love  in the case of  encountering Mr.Right.....Baby ,come on !!!  You  are  the best one !,where,and how are you ? my honey ? 
    I just  lose all of the depression  belonged to yesterday,i am sure.I will be serious about my life,nobody can help me  if  i have no confidence to deal with the problem.So  i want to say,i bury the lost green heart although maybe i live the life myself from now on.I admire ones  whose life is polychrome. However its cost is money and time.sometimes,we have  the engough time without too much money,on the other hand,we are accustomed to work hard and  do not have engough time with a good  deal  of money.It is an tragedy.When i realize this i feel so awful,that is the time i wanna travel all around the world to find the harmony.I am sure it is a  dream far away from my life,but it is still excits,for everytime,everywhere.
    I will be  not myself from now on ,i have to be a  mature lady who have no right to cry for the spilled milk.i have to grow up very quickly ,for my dream,for the travelling,for all of my families and friends.maybe it will last for most of my time,just like me ,i am old ,when i am not young ,i still have a dream which can remind me of the fact i was beautiful once upon a time.The only pity is for whom i should keep the beautiful face.
    i want to change myself today.It means i will do the  best for other people and i am waiting  for the MR right no matter the time and  the distance.It tells me that i should make the aim and manage to achieve the advancements.The only pity is for whom i should keep the progress except for the families.
    Anyway, i would change myself for the new year is coming.Hope everything is going on well without depression or unhappiness.
   The best wish for me is to get more time and  money for the travelling ,hope the Gold will favor a good man to live with ......